Where is here?

I feel him in me 

I feel him calling

I feel him in my heart

I feel him here

I feel him everywhere

From my head to my toes

From the east to the west I see him

I see him in me

I see him calling 

I see him in the my heart

I see him here

I see him everywhere

But where am I? And where is here?

That Girl

I close my eyes
I see an untouched beauty,
I feel her innocence
Her smile radiates and her eyes glow.
I close my eyes
I see a darkness encroach
Look out, I shout
She doesn't hear me.
How I wish I could stop it
But that girl is me.

Stepping Out From the Shadows

A Lenten Meditation

I need to make a clearing in my Dasein (being) in order to develop my personal relationship with God.


This school year has been rough and I need some new growth to get me out of the rut I’m in. I’m in the process of clearing an area for God to be at the center. Living waters. The tree of Life in the midst of the garden.


With prayer and reading scripture, I am healing wounds, and allowing God to come closer by clearing the clutter and sin from my life and my heart.


Sin, like the tall trees in the forest, has kept me from feeling God’s light. I am getting cold in the shadows, and God is calling me to make the clearing that I’ve needed for so long.

Broken

It feels like being ripped open.
We cannot, however much we want to, deny our natural feelings.
Love--
But maybe it is just the illusion of it
Yes it has to be
He tells me to put my clothes back on,
and that hurts.
There are little bits of time
that I feel loved,
they come and go.
It hurts even more when it leaves.
That isn't how it should be.
He wants me he says,
but does he?
He doesn't see past my skin,
how would he know?

Maybe there isn't someone who could love me past my skin.